Painful Reminder!?

15 Dec

I have shared others prayers and posts regarding the tragedy yesterday in Newtown, but I have not shared my own thoughts yet. Mainly because I, like so many others, don’t know what to say. I don’t understand; My heart is broken; I have nothing but questions and am searching for answers like everybody else. I will continue to pray for peace and comfort for everyone involved. I know that there are things on this earth that we will never be able to fully comprehend. So, I pray that as the stories continue to come we will see God glorified and we will see people everywhere turn to Him for answers, guidance, comfort, and peace. 

I didn’t sleep much last night! Of course, I kept thinking about the families and how their lives have been forever changed. But, I was forced to look at my life and how this tragedy (and others similar) impacts me. To be completely honest; I was disappointed in myself! I was (and still am) disappointed by the fact that it takes something of this magnitude to remind me (painfully) how complacent I have become. I should not have to read someones facebook post to remind me to tell my daughters that I love them. It should not take the loss of life to remind me how precious every breath I take is. I get so wrapped up in myself It seems that I have forgotten the instruction found in Philippians 2:3-4, “Do nothing from rivalry or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves. Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others.” I have been given incredibly precious gifts in an amazing wife and two beautiful daughters. And, I have been entrusted by God to love, nurture, care for, and protect them-His children. Julie, Keli, and Karis should never not know how much they are loved! I pray that I would not take a single breath for granted and my actions, words, and thoughts would be  statements of true gratitude!

Lord, I beg your forgiveness and pray that you would change me!


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